[Mode: David Archuleta - Something 'Bout Love]

Hai there..I'm pretty sure all of you now in the mode of nak hias rumah  taruk pelita keliling rumah sambil bakar mercun dengan sepupu sepapat...neway..I want to take this opportunity to wish you guys..SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN...nak duit raya?..datang lah beraya rumah..=p [Warning!!Ini entri penuh dengan emo segala macam emo mak nenek. Tak sesuai untuk ibu mengandung..mungkin membawa kepada gejala geli-geli separuh badan..]

Erm...hari bertambah hari..and my pretending semakin bagus..pretend like I never feel what so call heart broken..even it was 9 months passed..still I can't take it...I don't know who am I right now..aku cepat rasa tertekan..aku cepat rasa nak blame diri sendiri..aku cepat sedih..aku asyik teringat masa tu...I know..mungkin orang tu langsung tak kenal who am I...Ok..I'm so sory for acting like such stupid jerk...

Sorry.

9 Months.If orang lain sure dah tak fikir lagi. dah..senang je nak move on...but me..ntah..kadang-kadang teringat..kadang-kadang cuba lupakan diri dengan benda lain..memang kalau diikutkan hati..tak nak ingat langsung..tapi..some sort of ...I don't know...rindu [kot]..tapi...do you miss me?..tak miss pun tak ape..do you remember me? for once?..I'm pretty sure..you're not..

Do you remember me for once?

Argh...why must be stupid moron like this... stuck off macam haram...I don't know..macam itu kot rasenye bile orang cakap first time fall in love..dari tak pernah-pernah rabak..terkoyak terus bernanah tak ade ubat...sumpah  dari yang tak kenal menangis tu hape..jadi hati tisu..aku ingat lagi...macam mudah sangat nak leleh..my answer..I don't know...ntah lah..


Bila ingat balik..nak nangis..ingat je balik..nak nangis lagi..sedih..rabak...after hoping too much..care too much...give too much..tapi at last.."suka bukan sayang"..ayat keramat yang aku ingat sampai bila-bila..ya..I know..we just friend..you never accept me and what else yang sewaktu dengannya..tapi dengan pendirian akal yang logik..keluar makan sekali..keluar tengok wayang sekali..going back cuti sekali..bufday..and etc..etc..etc..and end up with "just friend"..hati siapa tak punah?..hati siapa tak merindu?...hati siapa yang tak terluka?..until now still hoping da same thing..even I know..you have a better life now..and I know you now entitle as oversea student..not like me..just someone who don't manage to fulfill my dream like yours..

Don't bring any meaning to you...right?

I'm not putting any blame on you..because majority are my fault...my fault to fall in love with you..my fault, put so much hope in you..my fault, getting too close to you..my fault, to know you..my fault..all my fault...but I don't have any chance to redeem all my fault to you do I?..to ask you..why you make me like this?...Ha ha ha..the answer still the same right?..past always be past..but that "past" make me like this..I don't see any purpose to put any hope anymore..sebab each time..failure..broken heart..jatuh..and end up with saddest ending..

Erm..how strong you're...when it comes to love..you can't stand with it..to deal with broken heart..to deal with missing someone to death...pretending nothing happen..pretending you don't know someone that you fall in love..no words can describe what's the exact emptiness are all about..and hoping and hoping the same thing..hoping that special someone to come back even she/he said "we can only be just friend"...ya..I can chill..but till when? till when I can pretend nothing happen and at the same time I miss you..and at the same time I remembering you..pray to God you would be the one for me..and..one thing..please..don't say..that "suka" yang you told me just another fake and pretending...I'm begging you...

Hurm..sorry..my feeling are over me..can't control it..because I miss my special someone...so mucccchhh...












P.S: Be myself sometime so hurtful..sometime meaningless..sometime bias..sometime unfair..sometime me always be me..sometime I can't be like any handsome guys that you admire most..but sometime..I do have heart to fall in love...POOR ME.

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